Its 1:10 am. God knows why I'm up but I am. Staring at my screen, I think of words to put in. It's my first blog. Should I be positive? Should I try to show what is going through my head? Should I write something cryptic? Questions shoot through my head and I feel as though I'm living my life to appease others, to appease a society which does not understand me and beside all of that, has forced me to become another of it's many nobodies. What has been eating my insides up has been a question. A question which came up recently in light of an interaction with a person who has been termed as 'Good Friends with everyone'. I felt anger and jealousy at the interaction of 'Good friends with everyone' with a certain person, lets say X. Now comes the question, Is a person defined by what one does on the outside or what one is on the inside? Is one defined by one's actions, one's thoughtfulness, one's image of himself to the outside world or is one defined by the emotions one feels inside?? One of my friends told me that the answer to this question lies in whatever makes me happy and all that mattered was that. But in making myself happy, I would have to stop bottling up the emotions I felt inside me and let them flow. This would have it's implications. Society would be outraged and I would be isolated. A life of all give and no take is not what I desire, but to be truly happy I need my emotions to flow. Which brings us to the sensible advice from the same source. Change yourself, but changing what you feel on the inside is extremely hard, whatever you might be hold. What probably will change will your reaction in a similar situation, the reaction which you show the world, not the reaction which you feel inside you. So in the end, is change something you do so that the society you do would not be aghast at your current behavior?? Why do people change?? So that society accepts them? People forget who they are and become what society turns them into?? Is it the death of an individual, is it the death of principles, is it the death of emotions?? Nothing is absolute, yet all need not be relative either.